#SOL20 Day 22: I feel naked and vulnerable.
On Saturday my husband and I went for a car ride to spend some time collecting sea glass and stroll leisurely along the water’s edge. I hadn’t been out of the house for days so I was looking forward to adventure.
On the way home, Eddie insisted that we stop at the grocery store. Since we have several family members living with us, two being guys that have big appetites, he felt we need more food. I explained that I had ordered online and we were fine. (I’d even purchased an extra freezer that was filled with chicken and frozen veggies.) I conceded with reasoning that since Henry, my daughter’s baby. was teething and we were running low on baby tylenol, it would be okay for a quick stop.
“Let’s be really quick about this and get just what we need,” I begged my husband.
We entered King Kullen and I instantly felt myself getting hot. I realized as I looked around at the people shopping in the food store that Eddie and I hadn’t come prepared with gloves and masks. All around me were masked wearing gloves. I almost was disappointed that they weren’t wearing hospital gowns.
I feel naked and vulnerable.
As Eddie pushed the shopping cart down the second aisle, I began to panic that we were touching items that weren’t safe and suddenly felt the need to Purell my hands…. immediately. Could I possibly be having a panic attack, I thought to myself.
Sea glass, found on beaches, is naturally worn and smooth by tide and time,. As a mother & teacher, reader & life-long learner, and of course, sea glass collector, I aspire to use writing to help me understand myself and the world around me.